Okay….so this is the very first time this has ever happened in my life!!! I actually got what I wanted! With wanting what hospital I wanted to go to, what unit I wanted to go to, with the proper diagnosis when admitted to the ER. Nothing mentioning anything on Axis II!!! Having an actual individualized treatment plan! Amazingly, they (a certain private psychiatric hospital in south Denver) have actually gotten right so far!
So…after being discharged from the downtown hospital, it only took one week for me to attempt suicide again. Not because of any diagnosis I have or because I was severely depressed, but because of this time of year being a severe trigger for me. To spare the details and give you the nuts and bolts version…I lost 1.5 pints of blood. I was in the ER for about a day and a night, before this social worker (an amazing social worker that is definitely doing the job he was meant for) made the decision, along with the doctor, to put me on a CRS 27:10, or 72 hour hold. The social worker understood what I was going through, that I really did not want to die, but could not control the brainwashing I experienced in my childhood.
This brainwashing was what was leading me to attempt suicide, have suicidal ideation, and ultimately come very close to killing myself this past time. The social worker understood this all! It was amazing! It was the first time someone outside my Therapist and Psychiatrist actually understood what I was suffering from! He worked his best to get me into the “best private hospital” which mission statement includes:
“[the hospital] strives to provide a level of excellence in behavioral healthcare services that prompts patients to recommend our facility to families and friends; that physicians prefer when making choices for their patients; that purchasers preferentially select for their clients; and an environment of care and quality of which our employees are proud.”
The hospital also states:
“Once a patient is admitted to [the hospital], an interdisciplinary team creates an individualized treatment program that includes acute care treatment, solution-focused treatment, and comprehensive discharge planning.”
I only bring up these two statements because of the treatment I received during the time I spent there.
I arrived April 25, 2012 (I was in the ER April 23, 2012). I was oriented to the Unit, which was the Adult Unit II. It was the Unit with the higher functioning patients that could utilize and apply the group information that was taught during the day by some Nurses, Social Workers, Therapists, and a Speciality Therapist in Trauma.
I was there mainly because of my suicide attempt and the time of the year was a severe trigger for me. I was hoping that I was going to be able to stay in the hospital until my trigger season was over tonight/tomorrow (six weeks after the Easter holiday weekend).
Upon entry of the Unit, I was involved fully in an intake that was the most comprehensive I have experienced in Colorado! They filled out a paper entitled
“MULTIDISCIPLINARY TREATMENT PLAN”:
Axis I PTSD [Post Traumatic Stress Disorder], MDD [Major Depressive Disorder]
Axis II Deferred
Axis III HTN [Hypertension (only because I was taking a medication at a really low dose that was to help with my diabetes medications.)] T2DM [Type II Diabetes Mellitus] TBI [Traumatic Brain Injury]
Axis IV Primary support, social, occupation
Patient Strengths: (list at least two) Calm and cooperative with assessment. Has a nice smile
Patient Challenges: eliminate all thoughts of SI [suicidal ideation] and get stabilized on medications.
MASTER PROBLEM LIST
This was the first time I felt like and truly believed that someone has finally understood my issues and I was finally going to get help with my issues!!!!
Well…I met with a doctor I saw last fall for suicidal ideation. He was a young doctor of Psychiatry. I also met with a social worker that I thought was going to be an advocate for me throughout my stay. Thus my hopes were up because I had a report with the doctor and a social worker willing to advocate for me for things that I am not capable of doing for myself.
I guess my hopes were way too high, because the doctor was just filling in for another doctor and my social worker only met with me maybe a total of 5 times during my month stay! She did not advocate for me, she did not help me with my issues, she did absolutely nothing. I’m not saying that she could not do those things, but I believe she was way overworked and had way too many patients on her plate to help me or even understand me.
Well…..This was the first day of my stay at the so called “best hospital in the Denver Metro area”. More to come soon!
I’ll try to upload the paper’s soon…with blacking out the hospital’s name so that I do not infringe on copyright laws….
- My State of Mental Illness…right now…and what true friends do for each other. (mentalillnesstoday.wordpress.com)
- Part II: My State of Mental Illness…right now…and what true friends do for each other. (mentalillnesstoday.wordpress.com)
- Mental Illness Is Real And Can Be Treated (christiancopingwithsuicide.com)
- How to Help a Suicidal Person (fightingptsd.wordpress.com)